Light Nourishment

I am starting this blog because I am starting a new phase of my life....one that will be very interesting I think. I have been reading alot of different raw websites over the past couple of years (ie every one I find) and have played with being raw....going 100% raw for 16 and 23 days at a time, but never taking it all of the way. So now, inspired by Angela Stokes and wanting to make a quantum shift in my diet and my health, I have started, today, a 92 day juice feast. I have some questions that I don't see answered in Angela's e-book or the DenseNutrition website, (though I am sure if I asked them they would tell me,) but I don't know what is the significance of having a full head of celery in your juice each day. However, I will comply, and I will try and find out the answer to that question and let you know here. My juice for this first part of my day is a 64 ounce batch of parsley, kale,small bit of celery, (all that I had) 8 small pink lady apples, 4-6 large carrots, 4 tangelos, 1 med zuchini, 1 large head of broccoli (not much stem, already juiced the stem), 1 large cucumber. It tastes quite delicious, a bit tart, and goes down easily. I put it in 3 San Pelligrino bottles to take to work. They are great for putting juice in, are dark green and glass and hold a decent amount. I have a Greenstar Juicer which is supposed to make good quality juice that keeps well. It seems to, I am very please with it. So far, I have yet to drink much of my juice, but it's nearly 9 am, so I will start on it soon. Before I left the house I had a large glass of water with 2 scoops of Tonic Alchemy Greens from Ron Teeguarden/Dragon Herbs in it. I meant to also take some hemp oil, as I bought a bottle of the Nutiva, but was rushing and forgot. I didnt' sleep all that well last night, I have been bingeing on chocolate the past two days, eating an entire 4 ounce bar of good quality dark chocolate each day. This is too much for me...today I have a headache of sorts...feel like I have a chocolate hangover. I also ate quite a large quantity of food yesterday, had 2 bananas, a deluxe breakfast burrito made by yours truly which contained refried pinto beans, scrambled eggs, sauteed mushrooms with garlic, fried potatoes with cumin, oregano,chopped green chilies and lime juice, sauteed red and yellow bell peppers with onion and balsamic vinegar, and a touch of grated pepper jack cheese in them. Nice and filling. Then I also finished off the rest of a bag of blue corn chips, then came home and made a kung pao noodle bowl with leftover mushrooms, and sauteed peppers and onions added, plus a couple of tablespoons of peanut butter.....then some small slices of sourdough bread with butter and a small bowl of the tuna pasta with peas that I made everyone else for dinner. My plan was to just have juice for after work/dinner, but my neurotic meter was on high, so that went out the window completely. I slept well most of the night, but then woke up early in the morning thinking about a website I had looked at yesterday which was about Peak Oil, and the coming fall of civilization as even a 5% drop in available oil would have deep, widespread consequences. The website was about being prepared to live off of the grid, when your lights and power go out, when the water goes out, when the disaster, manmade or natural, strikes. It talked about how this is highly likely to happen in the next 5 years...and I found it rather upsetting. Upsetting because their arguments and information made sense to me....and scared me. I didn't know what to do......most people do not believe anything like this will happen. I don't want to believe it, but I do. As I lay there thinking on this, my mind and emotions very much in turmoil, I realized that it does all make sense, and it explains why Bush et al are pushing this war no matter what anyone says, are pushing against Iran though it makes no sense....they want control of Iraq's oil, are damn serious about getting it, and do not want anyone, including Iran getting in the way. They say it's because of 'terrorists', but that's just a bullshit cover story. It's about oil, peak oil, and them getting all they can before it's gone, stealing it (as they want to do from Iraq), and using our citizens to fight and die for it, but not sharing any of the wealth with those who help them get it. The whole army needs to revolt, the whole country needs to revolt.....the whole situation is revolting. And thinking about this, realizing exactly what is going down, made it clear to me that another thing to do to get prepared is to sell our house. Why sell our house? Because we just 'bought' it, still owe a ton of money on it, and that is a debt, a liability we do not need. Far better to sell it, get out from under that debt, rent or buy a nice doublewide trailer, and save our money while we can, while getting it together with other like minded folks as to how we can survive when the shit hits the fan. Be prepared. I know this sounds so far out, but if you pay attention....if you take everything that is happening....everything everything....it makes a hell of alot of sense. Much more so than anything you will see or hear on tv or in the large media. And I apologize. This is not what I want my website to be about, and I am not into fear or pandering to fear....but I just see this as the truth of what is happening, and what is to come. But enough. After I came to this realization, I felt at peace, then fell into a light sleep and had dreams of my oldest son's father, someone who lives outside of society....on family land, in a cabin he built with his own hands. In my dream this place was considerably larger than it is in real life, and I was visiting/seeing him for the first time in nearly 20 years, with my middle son (who is 12). He didn't seem overjoyed to see me, a bit uncomfortable, we hugged, then he went off somewhere, and I looked around, saw a couple of cats, a couple of younger women....wondered if one of them was his girlfriend....then there were a bunch more alternative type people all milling around, and I decided to just leave, as I wasn't going to really be able to connect with him, esp not with all of these people around, so I got my stuff (somehow I had a lot of stuff, all of it mine, old baby shoes, different things,) tried to take it to my van, kept dropping things, got to the van, which was now in a room (strange) was worried there were steps or other vehicles blocking me...but saw a way clear....but the dream ended before I actually left, before there was any resolution....... As I lay there I started feeling rather ill, just bad .....probably from eating too much chocolate.....but rather than worry about this, I just started repeating that I was taking in light and love, being nourished by light and love, and I started feeling better. This not feeling well feeling is still there, but much more of an undercurrent, than a dominant feeling. I need to take care of myself, not go all neurotic from boredom at work, from the world at large, etc.....
So....Light Nourishment.....definitely a double entendre.....and not what I offer today. I read other blogs, they are so wonderful with spiritual words of wisdom, wise sayings, beautiful pictures. I would like my blog to contain all that.....and more....but this at least is a start. I will make it more beautiful and nourishing as I go forward.
ciao bellos!
Alessandra