Ebb and Flow

All things ebb and flow. The weather, our emotions, events, energy....life. Today is an ebb day. The energy is more pulled in, more reserved. Which is good. Need to have balance. I love the highs, I can see why people who have bi-polar issues hate to be medicated. The highs feel so good, but they are too high, too out there to make connections with other more grounded realities, but I can imagine it is hard to find the right thing to bring you back in, but not dull you. I sometimes get a bit out there with my energy, but I don't have the extreme downward swing. I have the ebb and the flow...... Yesterday was only partially successful. I drank my green juice all day, didn't touch the lemonade, wasn't really wanting it, it was just in case, and went home and made more juice, but also made more delicious yummy food....and had to taste it. I also was feeling hunger during the day as I am not totally in 'feasting' mode, and I had to meet the pizza delivery person to receive the pizza that was ordered for a meeting, it smelled so good, but I knew the reality of eating it so didn't. I ate a chocolate truffle instead. And later, when I knew there was still pizza and it was still calling my name, though I did not want to eat it....I had another chocolate truffle. Not terrible to my way of thinking, while it may mess up cleansing it messes up fasting less than even a bite of pizza would. At home I have been cooking like I work at a restaurant...my 10 year old told me at dinner that I should open a restaurant...which was a nice compliment. Dinner was brown rice, and bean burritos. I took a can of Rosarita refried jalapeno salsa pinto beans, and a can of Rosarita green chili with lime pinto beans, added diced red onions, garlic, cilantro, oregano and cumin plus some of this wonderful organic lime marinade I found on the clearance shelf at Target. I am so glad I got all they had as it is wonderful. Then I took the grape tomatoes that were needing to be used, cut them in half, put them in the blended with some canned green chilies I had already pureed, chopped those up pretty good, put them back in the pan, added red onion, garlic, cilantro, oregano, cumin, a can of organic crushed roasted tomatoes, a bit of crushed dried chipotle pepper, and a touch of ketchup to take the edge off...and made salsa. And I made fresh guacamole again. Organic avos have been a real deal at 99 cents each so we have quite a few around the house. I put a large flour tortilla in the skillet, put a light sprinkling of pepper jack cheese on it, some beans, rice and a little salsa, folded it over from each direction so it looked kind of like a flattened cannoli (if you can picture that....) browned the tortilla slightly on both sides and put on a plate. Served with the guacamole and white corn chips...dinner was a hit. I had to taste everything esp the salsa and the guacamole...I didn't eat alot, but it does have an effect. I don't know what I am going to do about this bad habit I have gotten into......need to really bite the bullet. So, as the saying goes, if at first you don't succeed, try try again. Maybe I need to make myself another treat juice. It truly is just a matter of discipline, of mind over matter.....and truly being determined, serious, dedicated, committed. And I have not been. I say I want to be, but I don't follow through. That's okay and it's not okay. I mean, what is it I really want? What I want is great health and that lovely juice feasting high energy. I won't get the great health benefit if I don't tighten up, as the cleansing process cannot resume til I stop eating. Cheating. Okay. Word up.
There is a lovely blog online... rawketscience.blogspot.com I love this blog. Lots of wonderful things shared there. Here, all you get is me, and some nice photos......I would love to give you more,...have to work on that. My cooking spree has given me the idea of bartering my cooking for services, goods. I am quite a good cook...I love to do it, and have really gotten into the flow of it. I can come up with something yummy and creative with almost any ingredients......just whatever is lying around, and recipes don't throw me at all....I don't sweat doing them exact..I use them for ideas, for a jumping off point. Some obviously need to be followed more closely than others and I love love love fresh food..fresh veggies...fresh fruits. We have in the house right now, pears, kiwi, mango, apples, bananas, lovely red bell peppers, lacinato kale, parsley, cilantro, red onions, yellow onions, garlic, avocados, carrots, yukon gold potatoes, rice milk, dairy fresh whole milk, butter, olive oil, balsamic vinegar, apple cider vinegar, rice vinegar, raspberry vinegar, pine nuts, almonds, macadamia nuts, walnuts, pecans, pumpkin seeds, dried sour cherries, frozen apricots and raspberries, bought fresh and organic last summer,grated reggiano parmesan cheese, laura chenel goat cheese, irish cheddar cheese, pepperjack cheese, roma tomatoes, couscous, tortillas, sourdough bread, whole wheat bread, pita bread, hummus, raw tahini, miso, earth salt (it's pink), fresh ground black pepper, old bay seasoning, nutritional yeast, raisins, currents, red lentils, green lentils, butternut squash, daikon root, celery, cucumber, broccoli, dried chipotle chilies, ginger root, nama shoyu,mayo, horseradish mustard, canned tuna, baked chicken breasts in mediterranean sauce, baked turkey tenderloin (my husband and boys are currently meat eaters....me I will still eat a little....) cocoa powder, raw cocoa nibs, almond extract, vanilla extract, raw honey, raw agave nectar, dried cane juice sugar, brown sugar, eggs, whole and white spelt flour, oats, brown rice, jasmine rice, all kinds of spices, salsa, white corn chips, blue corn chips and on and on....99% of all foodstuffs in our house are organic, .I love having all of this stuff and more. It's magically delicious!! And of course I have lots of cookbooks, Rawsome by Brigitte Mars, Real Food Real World by Sarma Mellingelis and Matthew Kenny, Living Cuisine by Renee Loux Underkoffler, the new Gourmet cookbook, Joy of Cooking, Fit for Life Cookbook, Moosewood, Field of Greens, Tassajara, and quite a few others. My new favorite is Matthew Kenny's Mediterranean Cooking....got it from the library, really need to buy my own copy....as I love almost every recipe in there. Also like Jeremy Saffron's raw cookbook......have from the library also....and lots of printed out raw recipes I find online.........no wonder I find it hard not to cheat...I do love food......good food....
Today's juice is parsley, kale, celery, beet, daikon, carrot, broccoli, apple. It's quite good, not too anything.
And on that lovely note I will say ciao bella per oggi.....and promise you I will not cheat today. Promise myself.
Alessandra