If at first you don't succeed

I can't believe I didn't post yesterday....but then, I do wonder if I even have any readers. If you are reading this, will you at least say hello, so I know if even one single solitary soul cares to read this? Yesterday was another one of those days, filled with good intentions, which didn't last. Noooooo....didn't last. Ate a small bag of pretzels from the vending machine, then had a piece of chocolate decadence cake while food shopping, then finished off the chocolate part sans way too much icing, left from my husband's birthday cake, then a bit of guac and chips. And of course I went to bed with a pounding heart, and wide awake head, all worked up. I did take a handful of Primal Defense as an antidote....probably did help, but I lay in bed, feeling blue.....but it got all worked out by morning. I just really hate modern life...living so far from all of my family, not being able to afford to go see them, feel like a virtual person in a virtual world, can't afford to go anywhere, upset with myself for not doing better with this juice feast, feeling at a loss as to direction....but as I said. It all felt sorted out by morning. I do want to move from our house. It is larger than we need, more expensive than we can afford and still have a life, and I want to live in an area where it feels more like a community instead of the modern suburbia where we are...sterile, etc. I mean our neighbors are friendly enough, but we hardly ever connect with any of them. No kids for our kids to play with, old folks and babies live around us.....etc. So, got up, made more juice this morning.....didn't wash my hair or clean the juicer......tired, but determined. Something's gotta give here.....and it's going to be the bad habits not the good. Today, I will do 100% juice. Will I really? I will let you know tomorrow. It is the plan. I used to journal on Michelle's FromSadtoRaw website...then dropped off. Even Michelle seems to have dropped off. I hope she is doing well.......she has not posted for herself in over 3 months, and rarely updates the site anymore. I wouldn't be surprised to find it gone one day. I don't want it to leave, but I think it's over. sigh.
But this here, is far from over. So I don't do 13 weeks and a day...I can still do 10 weeks and 2 days.....okay, stop laughing at me. I can do it!!!